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Sophomore album by W.O.L.F, follow up to For Sale.

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released June 12, 2016

Production handled by Mr. Kooman and Python. Mixing by Sol 8.

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Track Name: Crystal Ball
The fuck are you worried bout me fo?
Mind ya business or y'all wind up missing
Fuck are you worried bout me fo?
Mind ya business or y'all wind up missing
Look, I been independent since a lil kid homie
I been getting bigger, yeah the kid been growing
I been showing out, blowing out competition like a candle it's a trounce
And I'm out, bounce
Waive ya hands in the air, it's a stick up (stick up)
I gotta get up, pick it up, sitting round watching light pass on the ceiling, get up
I been counting down since I'm a younging homie fuck it homie
Said he got my back, and he'll fund it fo me
Fuck I'm owing everybody classics, feeling like the wait gonna crash in the wake of a breakdown
Fuck it, lemme break it down for you, tell me how it sound to you
Putting everything inside your body on the ground for it
Blood sweat tears and I'll drown for it
Take whatevers out pour it down you’re a clown if you stop so soon
I see ya, who I need is up to me and I choose my people
You not wanted, you not needed, unimportant, fuck I see
I’m back up on my shit, this pen is scratching up my hitlist
Get this, worry bout you I’ma worry bout me,
I ain’t heard about you, you ain’t heard about me

The fuck are you worried bout me fo?
Mind ya business or y'all wind up missing
Fuck are you worried bout me fo?
Mind ya business or y'all wind up missing
The fuck are you worried bout me fo?
Mind ya business or y'all wind up missing
Fuck are you worried bout me fo?
Mind ya business or y'all wind up missing

….Ain’t nobody feeling like I’m feeling in this motherfucker
Is you? You know it’s true
You could take whatever sympathy you got for the situation I’m in and toss it
I’m fine man I got this,
Never put another man’s life into my shit, I am not psychic, I am as liable
To tell you it’s fine as I might be to drop it and fight for what I get
Try it I got ya, cause I was told way back fight for yours
And I’d put my life down to ignite this cause
(I mean I’m telling everybody they can see it if they want it
And it’s not an invitation it’s a peaceful way to call em)
Tell em I ain’t taking shit, no more, no more, no more (fuck it they got it)
Tell em I ain’t taking shit from nobody, I promise
Been learning more about myself since I got in to college
I gotta be honest, I’m not a psychologist but psychotic is probable
I’m a couple quarters off from a dollar
My two cents turned a nuisance, who’s bent
Dude is, truly I do this I’m moving this music
Like i could be the next one, to blow
Like I don’t see the test coming, no
Like why believe whenever I could cling
I don’t like to see me let something go
And I won’t be letting up, tightening the grips
Lightning quick, you know I’m diving in this shit
Climbing with the pen, why you getting sick
Rubber necking, snap, run ahead, and crash
Try and listen, if ya come prepared to scrap
I’m prepared to laugh, mind ya business bitch

The fuck are you worried bout me fo?
Mind ya business or y'all wind up missing
Fuck are you worried bout me fo?
Mind ya business or y'all wind up missing

(I know they see me coming)The fuck are you worried bout me fo? (I know they see me coming)
(I know they see me coming)Mind ya business or y'all wind up missing (I know they see me coming)
(I know they see me coming) Fuck are you worried bout me fo? (I know they see me coming)
(I know they see me coming) Mind ya business or y'all wind up missing (I know they see me coming)

I been climbing all of my life
I don’t see the top coming soon
I been fighting all of my life
I don’t think I’ll fall, yet
Fall, yet, everything I have inside this heart melts
What’s that crystal ball tell?
What’s that crystal ball tell?
Only thing I got in life is death
Like it’s destined, every minute like a year
So I’m living life inside the seconds
I ain’t going back yet
I ain’t going back yet,
I’ma find a purpose till it kills me on my last breath
Cause I been climbing all of my life
What’s that crystal ball tell?
Track Name: Diamonds
People changed and I move on
Use it as the lyrics to a new song
I been severing ties, nothing new
But I wonder if it’s worth looking dead in the eyes
I been moping, quiet, hoping, open eyelids
Something brewing dog, I move in silence
You and all you crew involved can close your mouths
An open mind the only thing worth my timing

I ain’t giving in no more
I ain’t what I used to be and I’m fine with that
I ain’t giving in no more
You ain’t what you used to be and I’m fine with that

Taking calculated risks, never measure the cost
Could be a hundred to one, but never tell em the odds
Cause I been circulating flyers, tapes, tweets, fuck it emails
Word of mouth, need to get wind under these sales
Till my shit retail, retweet that shit
Got a lot of clicks, gotta peep that shit
But the buzz still low, I’ma bee that kid
With the wing flap, anything he can get
Is a guarantee, fuck with boy on the rise
Lemme show em what I know on the line
Like my soul when I rhyme, to the folks that I reach
Want control of my life, but I know what I need
And I reap what I sew, what I wrote for the mic
Don’t be holding me tight, when I blow I’ma leave
And you gotta let go, for the moment yeah I’m holed in this life
But it ain’t gone last forever
Inside a ticking time bomb waiting
For the day that it could detonate
And I don’t ever wing it, I would rather fucking levitate
I don’t wanna see it, be a part of nothing wasting my time
I know a lot of shit stay in my mind
Cause I been holding back tears on em,
Yeah it’s that real, when I look into the mirror
And I’m knowing that fear gonna rise in me
And I might just be, what I hoped I’m not, and I hope I’m not

I ain’t giving in no more
I ain’t what I used to be and I’m fine with that
I ain’t giving in no more
You ain’t what you used to be and I’m fine with that

It’s been a quiet few months on the home front
Everybody left, me, I been travelling
Digging deep, wanna broaden what I know but
I seem to only want the places that I haven’t been
And that led me here to you
That moment I can’t take back
That led me here to you
That led me here to you
And maybe that’s perfect, maybe that’s worth it
Maybe that justifies all of this shit
But lately I’m hurting, feeling it’s urgent
I don’t really know what to be calling this shit
Is it fate, is it destiny?
What I make of my legacy
I create it from anger I guess it’s taking the best of me
Homies waiting to message me, wanna know if I need em
I wouldn’t be here without ya I hope it shows when I’m speaking
I mean it honest as possible there some shit that I gotta do
By myself, but I know if could conquer the obstacle
With no help from my peers, I’m a man in my own eyes
Handle my own life, yeah they say a fine line
Walking with the help of nobody on your side, like
Either it’ll make him or break him, I gotta try right
Everything riding on the road I see
But I’m the only fucking person in control of me

I ain’t giving in no more
I ain’t what I used to be and I’m fine with that
I ain’t giving in no more
You ain’t what you used to be and I’m fine with that
Track Name: Illuminated
This is the last call, climb up
From the top it’s a fast fall, so I jump
Parachute strapped, I ain’t pulling the latch
It’s a suicide mission but I’m sure I’ll be back
And as I’m falling to the bottom I remember why I started
Getting clearer cause I’m reaching the clouds (cause I’m reaching the clouds)
And all the people I forgotten started calling and I hear em
But it’s late, cause I’m seeing the ground (cause I’m seeing the ground)
Landed face first, pulling myself up
Left with the feeling that I couldn’t have helped but
I’m here right now and it’s that gotta mean something
I’m here right now, and it’s gotta mean something

And you couldn’t take this moment, moment
But you couldn’t take this moment from me
And you couldn’t take this moment, moment
But you couldn’t take this moment from me

So I stand tall, with ya
And if you wanna jump, then ya man falls with ya
I’ll be right here, taking it in
I fucking crawled to the top, and I’d make it again
So what the fuck could you tell me about the way that I’m living
This is my life, every single day’ll be different if I’m

Putting my mind to it, shit that I’m blind to
I’m devoted to learning about myself and what I’m doing
Not enough time to believe that it’s wrong
I got me, and the sum of all the people involved
And that’s a good start, push hard, look for the truth
Telling lies doesn’t hurt, but it would if it’s you
That believed it, looking for a reason to stay
But the reasons designed just to keep me in place
And I wanna see it all, with ya
I wanna be involved in the small shit, cause if it matters to one
I think it matters to all, and I be damned if I run
Because the challenge is tall, fuck it I’m here for it all

And you couldn’t take this moment, moment
But you couldn’t take this moment from me
And you couldn’t take this moment, moment
But you couldn’t take this moment from me

So I stand tall, with ya
And if you wanna jump, then ya man falls with ya
I’ll be right here, taking it in
I fucking crawled to the top, and I’d make it again
So what the fuck could you tell me about the way that I’m living
This is my life, every single day’ll be different if I’m
Building this up with bare hands, I got this shit
From the moment I started planning my apocalypse
I faced death outta stage fright
But I been learning every day I gotta face life
You only get one crack at it, fuck it I’m back at it
I saw the floor, but now I’m climbing to that attic
I be the trap addict, gotta be something
And I could find a hundred reasons why I like to be fronting
But this is true shit, I accept me for the facts
All the shit that been keeping me back
I embrace it, that was my past and I take it
That was my path and I’ll break it

And you couldn’t take this moment, moment
But you couldn’t take this moment from me
And you couldn’t take this moment, moment
But you couldn’t take this moment from me
Track Name: Dawn's On Me
They say there’s truth in jest, truthfully I jest a lot
Shit I should’ve said culminates to what junior’s not
Been in the practice of biting my tongue, lately
But ain’t no hiding what I have become, baby
Bathe in holy water; I don’t think it’d save me
But I ain’t hopeless for the future, every day brings
Something more to the table, set it
Get a plate and settle up to start with the same objective
That’s the way that I fake aggression
Like really I’m madder than you coulda guessed
Psych, there’s truth when I jest
But truthfully I can see beauty in stress
Shit that I do in pursuit of success, right
I just be wanting the best life
Doing shit better the next night,
Taking it slow is predictable homie
I’m pushing this shit till my death, right
I don’t be seeing no red lights
Everyone saying I got it
Fuck it then, go head and make me an offer
I’m as committed to changing my posture
As i be slumping from slumming the night before, we
Spend time try and record, sleep, ten takes likely to bore me
First take, first take, first take, first take
First take classic, I should be scoring
You know my mind is recording
Back to back for those days
When I couldn’t believe in that master plan
And shit changed so quickly, I had to crack
And pick myself up to attach it back
But like humpty dumpy I climbed again
Only to find on the climb I was higher then
Cause my last peak, ehhhh, coulda been better
Spent too much time thinking “should I have said it”
Instead of letting it fly
But in time I grew wings and accepted the sky
My head is up high
Cell phone rings and it catches my eye
Crashing, crashing, I’m back to the real world
That’s the passion I rather would kill for
That’s the fact but I’m crashing, fast



And we all just want to believe in ourselves
But I been caught in the secrets I held
Secrets from me, and what I aspired to be
Truthfully I couldn’t sing
But I be on that R&B shit, sometimes
A rhyme ain’t all it seems, if
I begin to lose sight and start skipping flows
To fill when I’m hitting notes
Then I trail off…..
That’s the mark of my brain on the track with the rails off
I couldn’t say when this train stops
But I couldn’t blame if you bailed off
Hell nah, but I appreciate anyone willing to help dog
Shit is a journey in finding myself, what’ll go down if I fail y’all?
Cause I been changing lately at a rapid rate
I’m a hair behind the tortoise in this rabbit race
Pick it up, there’s no love lost,
Either show me you won’t stop
Or believe that I’m done, gone
Peace, I’m leaving this low spot
Reaching for confidence, outward
Looking at others to give me a choice
But they couldn’t tell me what I’m worth
And they aren’t the reason I’m given a voice
I only speak on the shit that I know
So talking with me’ll be limited to:
Balling and working and chilling at home
I might even throw in a gimmick or two
My confidence rising, no stopping the growth
Only thing pulling me down is me
I be accomplishing all of my goals
And there ain’t no telling what I can be
Track Name: Night Vision
Putting this shit in the public for me
I feel like I owe it to yall who discovered and funded my dreams
I am a product of what you would see
When it’s clear that the moment has passed me
Homies would typically gas me
Hard not to let that shit be the truth for you when you was acting
Like it was ya destiny just to be here
But what have you really been up to this year
Working and writing and sleeping and worrying
That is a cycle I recognize well
Hurting inside but just keeping it buried
And hide it till no one is trying to help
Turning and trying to dream in the night
But lately I haven’t been lying alone

I’m in the habit of lying to self
That’s why I been trying to buy into help
But I want the best, for everyone here
I wanna stress I never appeared
To be someone other than me at the time
That I’m breathing, I see that I’m recently blind
But I don’t need eyes to look at the past
And picture the people I couldn’t have lasted without, you
Driving around till we out, too, late
Come in the house, you, bounce,
After we rap, cool
Hitting record and the tracks, due, maybe
We could focus on it, get better while we open shop
And next tape we be blowing up, but noone’s showing up and
I know that after we pass, thru, playing
That shit, everyone gonna be saying that’s it
Everyone gonna be saying that’s sick, that’s it homie, let’s drop the shit

Laminated those covers, pass the CD out for one dollar, only
Sitting back at that grad practice, telling people to cop it, homie
Walked up and said, listen to me, I heard the tape, I’m digging the beats
But I wasn’t feeling the rapping, could you burn a tape of the beats and I get it for free
Fuck is he serious, this a critique, he dissing our schemes
I took that shit so personal, cause I wish and believed
I might go big
Anything’s possible, write some hits
But I don’t believe anymore that I’d do it alone
Cause you know I ben solo like homie was kylo ren
Fuck it, I feel like I might go sith
I been embracing that psycho shit
I been relentlessly feeling that pity
It’s obvious now when that cycle hits
That I need to get that shit back to the basics
I need to hit up the past when I made this
Not out of pressure or feeling like if I ain’t write it the best then I’m wasting my efforts
Make it together, saying whatever it takes
To get everyone in this place
I ain’t gone make it without y’all believe it
That’s why I know it’s unlikely I fail


I’m in the habit of lying to self
That’s why I been trying to buy into help
But I want the best, for everyone here
I wanna stress I never appeared
To be someone other than me at the time
That I’m breathing, I see that I’m recently blind
But I don’t need eyes to look at the past
And picture the people I couldn’t have lasted without, you
Driving around till we out, too, late
Come in the house, you, bounce,
After we rap, cool
Hitting record and the tracks, due, maybe
We could focus on it, get better while we open shop
And next tape we be blowing up, but noone’s showing up and
I know that after we pass, thru, playing
That shit, everyone gonna be saying that’s it
Everyone gonna be saying that’s sick, that’s it homie, let’s drop the shit

Book a flight and came back, with like 50 songs recorded
They all important
Putting my all into every line as my homie was mixing we ball and scoring
Coming back to watch flicks, and drop shit
The music was coming in natural flows
I felt like the day that we dropped it the people would notice you boy wasn’t rapping for show
The feedback, ehhhhh, mixed at best
But at the time I still did my best
One year later we back in the booth and I know this shit gone kill the rest
I mean I feel so confident in this shit
I been the bomb in this bitch
Lately I feel like there’s something inside me that’s waiting to show when I’m dropping this shit
You think you figured me out, fuck
I’ma be switching my style, up
I’ma be spitting some foul stuff
I’ma be splitting the ground, fuck
This is the shit I been working towards
And I be damned if I quit now
This is the shit I been earning for
And I be damned if I give out
Cause I got y’all, with all of it said
Even in failure, I call it success
Cause I got y’all, with all of it said
Even in failure, I call it success
Track Name: Hellfire
Ain’t no believing in this
This real deal, shit, I’ma be eating again
Load up my plate so the feasting begins
The hunger been growing since I was a kid
Fuck it I’m showing you why I been sick
Throwing these words at a wall and
I’m hoping that some of the shit’s gonna rhyme when it sticks
If not that’s cool I’ma drop this shit and kick back
I got no time for this chit chat, I am determined to get stacks
This is the part where y’all run
Peace, don’t be pretending to do this with me
I know the people that truly believed
I know it’s all luck

And my fingers crossed tight, walking the boardwalk
I’m here on fall night, headphones blasting, pen attached to the page
I’m writing these long rhymes
Anybody coulda been here if they wanted but I got it and god dammit you should know I’ma flaunt it
Like, like that’s for me
Gimme that trophy, happily
82 games in a season and I’ma be sweeping you know that I can’t be beat
Anyone testing, I don’t need questions, I don’t be passing can’t you see
MVP, MVP, Kobe when I hit these shots
I am a baller, lil homie you just gotta sit and watch

Who the best out, with no direction
Got no fans, I got no acceptance
Living straight edge was so depressing
I crashed the first year, a total freshman
And I ain’t been looking up since that day
Since that day
I been a different kid in that brain
I been committed to live that way
Fuck it, I know, I could do more, lately
I been content to be too damn lazy
I ain’t been working like you had raised me
I do that maybe
Looking for something to lift up my spirit
The devil is closer, I hear it, I hear it
I feel like he’s growing, he’s nearer, he’s nearer
I see him when I’m looking into the mirror
Track Name: Engine Light
I remember when it started in me
How could I not, that feeling never faded
Recently it’s getting harder living
With it, there’s no hiding what’s becoming in this cellar basement
There’s some shit that’s buried very deep
All the guarantees, handshakes with people I don’t
Need em if they scared of me, what I’m becoming or
That I barely see em, homie I’m rarely leaving my home so don’t
Be tearing me apart
I do that shit enough to myself
There’s some days that I could really give a fuck if I fail
Like I would rather be anywhere that my fire is lit but
I’m getting minimum wages to maximize this potential
It isn’t working as well as I’m hoping
Rent check short, gas money short
Shits it’s like perpetual brokenness
And that’s a sign of growing up, so I’ll take those lumps
Keep grinding while I make them bucks
I just wonder when I stop feeling like I’m always going through motions
I just wanna know if you devoted
I just wonder if you know what I been knowing
If you didn’t then it’s over

So I don’t wanna hear from anyone else
Been growing slowly through the year I guess I’m still in this shell
This adrenaline spikes, fuck with me cause we be chilling tonight
I’m not worrying bout anyone else

But when you facing the obstacle in the mirror
Everyday it’s getting clearer to my peers that I can’t trust myself
A couple doctors give opinions on what stuff might help
But I been going crazy lately tryna judge my health
I mean there’s some days, I’m feeling it, wake up, I’m killing shit
Go to sleep, smile on my face till I slip again
Cause it ain’t all a breeze, we work a lot for free
But being underappreciated is not for me
So for the seven days remaining in the week
I’ll be claiming what I see
And the rest is a given, I want the best but forgetting
To get my head in a rhythm or just a better position
To be the best as a person maybe instead of just bitching about it
Maybe I’ll do it, like if I say it then prove it
Cause I been wasting my movement
On stupid shit, and struggling to be great in this music
When I should really be focused on being great as a human

And I just wonder why it’s feeling like going through motions
I just wanna know if you devoted
I just wonder if you know what I been knowing
If you didn’t then it’s over

So I don’t wanna hear from anyone else
Been growing slowly through the year I guess I’m still in this shell
This adrenaline spikes, fuck with me cause we be chilling tonight
No worrying from anyone else
Track Name: Bright Side Dark Side
I’m the realest in this bitch
Ain’t nobody fucking with ya boi
I’m the realest in this bitch
Ain’t nobody fucking with ya boi
I’m the realest in this bitch
Ain’t nobody fucking with ya boi


Gathering ammunition for rainy days
Load the clip from the chopper we gonna make it rain
I never been about that life, why front
Cause I’m a rapper, so act right! Or time’s up blaow
Better believe it homie, I step on the scene
Fresh to death, fever a hundred seven degrees
I wanna drive fast, die young, fuck around
Try dumb shit, like drinking until my eyes numb, blind facts
Cause the truth speaks loudly
And I speak softly, but always gotta ear to the streets
And I do things proudly
But I be bossy, always gotta tell em what I hear on a beat
I been hearing some bullshit,
People that got opinions on me when they not a part of the shit I been pulling
Like that’s cool, come and say it to my face if you that cool
Confrontational shit, satan playing with fire
It ain’t no saving the kid
Fuck you thinking this is, I got a brain but it’s vacant
Lately, retaining like nothing and then I blank and forget
Shit, creating a hit list, cause lately I’m pissed
And it’s all on me, I intend to offend ya
And if you coming at me, I am the Dikembe defender
Bitches, but gimme a 16, get ate, in 24 secs
That shot clock like the bitches I rape
Pause, some shit that I say falls on deaf ears
I just wanna get your attention
Cause next year I’m coming for what I feel I been missing
Listen, been wishing repentance within the sentences written
Since I had started this shit
I hit the Mark and my DeNiro just departed from this
But I’m a smart focker, I want every drop and I’m milking
All of the profits I’m getting off it, and spending till bill is calling
I’m dizzy, the roof is spinning, i’ll sit(calm) (Bill Cosby)


Hands in my pockets, kicking a can on the sidewalk
I guess it’s time to sit and take a look at how I talk
I mean I keep my head down, moving along
But there’s a lot of shit I think that I don’t use in a song
And there’s two sides to it, and I don’t let a lot people see
It cause I feel like if I do I ruin what
I been working for, I been searching for
Someone to relieve this pain I got
And I been slowly turning more into things I’m not
And that’s maybe cause I’m straying from home
But I ain’t staying for long
It’s something I’ma run with
Cause you only get a few shots at it, I’ll be back when I’m done then
Track Name: Green Light
Ain’t it funny how this shit work out?
Went from unemployed making nothing
To making it for myself, need something more
Lately I been fucking bored, where’s that silver lining
I been trying, reaching night in night out,
I been lights out, burning bridges guess it’s time to light that fire right now
I feel it burning, that turn had furnished a milestone
Wonder where my drive is tho, wonder how far I would go
Riding slow through the city lights
Any night, every night, switching lanes, getting hype
This some some serious shit
Waking up in cold sweats in December again
Another year and I ain’t changed much
More like day to day stuff
Baby steps, led me from my home and then I came up
And ain’t no looking back, why would I be doing that
Time to turn the blinders on, time to leave my pride at home
Now I started pushing back, scribble on a crooked pad
Writing till I find a zone, riding till my mind is…gone


Cause all I see around is green lights
You wanna stop it, then ya stepping to me
Everybody got opinions, telling me what being me’s like
But understand that you could never do that better than me,
(Better than me) Ain’t a single fucking person out here better than me (bitch)
Better than me, and ain’t a single fucking reason why I’d let you believe

You see me working, day in day out
It don’t change much
And these verses playing, lay out
Like a paint brush
This how I tell it all, until it’s nothing left
This shit is every song, every fucking breath
My resolution is a selfish one
Be better to yourself, and the people that instill in you hope
And do the shit you know you’ve never done
And when you finish then you pick up your folks
There ain’t a limit just go
Stop being timid and blow, this shit is written in stone
This is the feeling you’re feeling inside the pit of your bones
This is destiny calling you homie pick up your phone
Go be a hero, homie
You been staying in this place all your life
But it’s time to make a living homie
For all the nights you couldn’t sleep
And the days you couldn’t focus
The times you couldn’t eat
Every other meal was frozen
And you wanna be a baller, yeah, hear em saying tru, tru
Never gonna make it as another, homie do you

Cause all I see around is green lights
You wanna stop it, then ya stepping to me
Everybody got opinions, telling me what being me’s like
But understand that you could never do that better than me,
(Better than me) Ain’t a single fucking person out here better than me (bitch)
Better than me, and ain’t a single fucking reason why I’d let you believe
Track Name: Spectrum
There’s a whole lot of ways I could tackle this shit
I could sit back and listen
I could be glad it happened and remember what it’s like making bad decisions
I’m with it,
Really with you, this feeling is drilling the tip of my skull
I maybe too pushy to get you to show what is real and what’s fake
The difference is so, tricky to know
Riding around in the city that’s home, the windows are low
I’m feeling inspired by people around me
They stick to me close
Feeling inspired to make rearrangements
Seeing this basement I started this shit in is funny
To me it was something to do when the feeling occurred
Now look at my telling my feelings in words

There ain’t much that can match with this
And I ain’t really looking for replacements
I ain’t really looking forward baby
I been living here with you
I been living here with you
Maybe if it’s meant to be, you and me could last forever
You and me could have it better, couldn’t have said that shit better myself
All this time tryna settle my health
I know that I’m sick, no medical test
I know I’m a kid, but step to me recklessly
You gone be feeling so helpless I never sleep
I been up grinding to reach on my every dream
I been up climbing to reach for my destiny
I been so focused on being the best of me

Maybe I took all the focus from you
I know that it’s true
I been addicted to growing myself,
But never considered me growing with you
Ain’t that some shit, spend ya whole life making connection
Then break em regardless of making the effort
Of staying together, it’s really an art
To all of my people that drifted apart
Know that I never would take it for granted
I know there some people I maybe abandoned
But I was determined to make it my plan
That I’d make it alone, riding alone
Writing alone, stay in a zone, finding it lonely
To be independent a hundred percent of the time that I own
It’s fucked up feeling you the only one that gets you
Like the whole world is against you
And no one could pretend to,
Own it, control it, the onus ain’t them, it’s you
What you made for yourself
What you take when it’s left
What you take in your death
But I be so focused on pleasing the living
That all of these thoughts’ll remain in my head
And maybe it’s best
So many secrets retaining so patiently
Waiting to show all the things I’da said
In the moment I know that I’m tripping I own it
I feel it corroding, this feeling is imminent
Middle between either thinking I’ll blow
Or shit I’ma blow it, in the position to

To sit and evaluate all of my fears
And losing you would be top of the list
But losing myself, is not gonna cut it
I gotta be real with myself,
Brain is working overtime, all this working out for health
I been looking everywhere but I don’t think I found myself
I been so focused, on fuck it like everything
Every lil thought that I think it’s a ferris wheel
Spinning with no control, I’m going overboard
Rather I’m sinking the ship is a metaphor
Rather be drinking, forget what I said it for
Rather not show you, or tell you my head is sore
Rather be, ready to tell you my secrets
And trust that unloading this ain’t a mistake
Show you the world that I made in my brain
Only for me, it’s only for me
But maybe there’s room in this place we can breathe
Maybe there’s proof in the danger I see
That living is living with reason to be
Track Name: Naked Eye
There’s some shit you couldn’t fix with a song
You see me limping to the finish but I’m getting along
Cause people always had my back for me
And I could never pay it back on a track, sorry
I try to show it every day but it‘s confusing me
But I don’t want a see a future in this shit if it doesn’t involve you and me
I know it’s stupid, I’m dependent on y’all
But if I wasn’t then fuck it, I’d be content with the fall

But I grab on, to you I never, to you I never
But I grab on, to you I’d never fall
I grab on, and I’ma be holding this moment every day
Cause I grab on, and I grab on
But I grab on, to you I never, to you I never
But I grab on, to you I’d never fall

I ain’t never said I’m perfect, believe it
But this a process, I believe it’s worth it to be it
Cause in the end, I’m tryna do right by me
And right by us, the middle is a time I breathe
And see the beauty in the small shit
Doing all the wrong shit
With ya I don’t care cause you laugh at it
Losing breath, I’m an asthmatic
But the moments when I’m choking show perspective on my bad habits
Backpacking with these books in my bag
I couldn’t relax, sweating in my hoodie in class
I got a lot to learn yet, only get it with practice
Adrenaline jacking it’s time to fucking get it, get active and I

But I grab on, to you I never, to you I never
But I grab on, to you I’d never fall
I grab on, and I’ma be holding this moment every day
Cause I grab on, and I grab on
But I grab on, to you I never, to you I never
But I grab on, to you I’d never fall

Feeling like the city on my back
I hold it as I’m building on a track,
And I exhale, believe, then inhale twice
The next breath I breathe could end my life
So this is like the journey in between the first and last breath
Looking for a reason, but the reason doesn’t match yet
Last breath, take it in, last breath, make it count
I wasn’t happy then, why would I be faking now
This the real deal, nose aimed at the sky
Gotta pinch myself, it doesn’t feel real
And if it isn’t don’t tell me, I might slip
But I was never as confident as I write this