I remember when it started in me
How could I not, that feeling never faded
Recently it’s getting harder living
With it, there’s no hiding what’s becoming in this cellar basement
There’s some shit that’s buried very deep
All the guarantees, handshakes with people I don’t
Need em if they scared of me, what I’m becoming or
That I barely see em, homie I’m rarely leaving my home so don’t
Be tearing me apart
I do that shit enough to myself
There’s some days that I could really give a fuck if I fail
Like I would rather be anywhere that my fire is lit but
I’m getting minimum wages to maximize this potential
It isn’t working as well as I’m hoping
Rent check short, gas money short
Shits it’s like perpetual brokenness
And that’s a sign of growing up, so I’ll take those lumps
Keep grinding while I make them bucks
I just wonder when I stop feeling like I’m always going through motions
I just wanna know if you devoted
I just wonder if you know what I been knowing
If you didn’t then it’s over

So I don’t wanna hear from anyone else
Been growing slowly through the year I guess I’m still in this shell
This adrenaline spikes, fuck with me cause we be chilling tonight
I’m not worrying bout anyone else

But when you facing the obstacle in the mirror
Everyday it’s getting clearer to my peers that I can’t trust myself
A couple doctors give opinions on what stuff might help
But I been going crazy lately tryna judge my health
I mean there’s some days, I’m feeling it, wake up, I’m killing shit
Go to sleep, smile on my face till I slip again
Cause it ain’t all a breeze, we work a lot for free
But being underappreciated is not for me
So for the seven days remaining in the week
I’ll be claiming what I see
And the rest is a given, I want the best but forgetting
To get my head in a rhythm or just a better position
To be the best as a person maybe instead of just bitching about it
Maybe I’ll do it, like if I say it then prove it
Cause I been wasting my movement
On stupid shit, and struggling to be great in this music
When I should really be focused on being great as a human

And I just wonder why it’s feeling like going through motions
I just wanna know if you devoted
I just wonder if you know what I been knowing
If you didn’t then it’s over

So I don’t wanna hear from anyone else
Been growing slowly through the year I guess I’m still in this shell
This adrenaline spikes, fuck with me cause we be chilling tonight
No worrying from anyone else