Putting this shit in the public for me
I feel like I owe it to yall who discovered and funded my dreams
I am a product of what you would see
When it’s clear that the moment has passed me
Homies would typically gas me
Hard not to let that shit be the truth for you when you was acting
Like it was ya destiny just to be here
But what have you really been up to this year
Working and writing and sleeping and worrying
That is a cycle I recognize well
Hurting inside but just keeping it buried
And hide it till no one is trying to help
Turning and trying to dream in the night
But lately I haven’t been lying alone

I’m in the habit of lying to self
That’s why I been trying to buy into help
But I want the best, for everyone here
I wanna stress I never appeared
To be someone other than me at the time
That I’m breathing, I see that I’m recently blind
But I don’t need eyes to look at the past
And picture the people I couldn’t have lasted without, you
Driving around till we out, too, late
Come in the house, you, bounce,
After we rap, cool
Hitting record and the tracks, due, maybe
We could focus on it, get better while we open shop
And next tape we be blowing up, but noone’s showing up and
I know that after we pass, thru, playing
That shit, everyone gonna be saying that’s it
Everyone gonna be saying that’s sick, that’s it homie, let’s drop the shit

Laminated those covers, pass the CD out for one dollar, only
Sitting back at that grad practice, telling people to cop it, homie
Walked up and said, listen to me, I heard the tape, I’m digging the beats
But I wasn’t feeling the rapping, could you burn a tape of the beats and I get it for free
Fuck is he serious, this a critique, he dissing our schemes
I took that shit so personal, cause I wish and believed
I might go big
Anything’s possible, write some hits
But I don’t believe anymore that I’d do it alone
Cause you know I ben solo like homie was kylo ren
Fuck it, I feel like I might go sith
I been embracing that psycho shit
I been relentlessly feeling that pity
It’s obvious now when that cycle hits
That I need to get that shit back to the basics
I need to hit up the past when I made this
Not out of pressure or feeling like if I ain’t write it the best then I’m wasting my efforts
Make it together, saying whatever it takes
To get everyone in this place
I ain’t gone make it without y’all believe it
That’s why I know it’s unlikely I fail


I’m in the habit of lying to self
That’s why I been trying to buy into help
But I want the best, for everyone here
I wanna stress I never appeared
To be someone other than me at the time
That I’m breathing, I see that I’m recently blind
But I don’t need eyes to look at the past
And picture the people I couldn’t have lasted without, you
Driving around till we out, too, late
Come in the house, you, bounce,
After we rap, cool
Hitting record and the tracks, due, maybe
We could focus on it, get better while we open shop
And next tape we be blowing up, but noone’s showing up and
I know that after we pass, thru, playing
That shit, everyone gonna be saying that’s it
Everyone gonna be saying that’s sick, that’s it homie, let’s drop the shit

Book a flight and came back, with like 50 songs recorded
They all important
Putting my all into every line as my homie was mixing we ball and scoring
Coming back to watch flicks, and drop shit
The music was coming in natural flows
I felt like the day that we dropped it the people would notice you boy wasn’t rapping for show
The feedback, ehhhhh, mixed at best
But at the time I still did my best
One year later we back in the booth and I know this shit gone kill the rest
I mean I feel so confident in this shit
I been the bomb in this bitch
Lately I feel like there’s something inside me that’s waiting to show when I’m dropping this shit
You think you figured me out, fuck
I’ma be switching my style, up
I’ma be spitting some foul stuff
I’ma be splitting the ground, fuck
This is the shit I been working towards
And I be damned if I quit now
This is the shit I been earning for
And I be damned if I give out
Cause I got y’all, with all of it said
Even in failure, I call it success
Cause I got y’all, with all of it said
Even in failure, I call it success