There’s a whole lot of ways I could tackle this shit
I could sit back and listen
I could be glad it happened and remember what it’s like making bad decisions
I’m with it,
Really with you, this feeling is drilling the tip of my skull
I maybe too pushy to get you to show what is real and what’s fake
The difference is so, tricky to know
Riding around in the city that’s home, the windows are low
I’m feeling inspired by people around me
They stick to me close
Feeling inspired to make rearrangements
Seeing this basement I started this shit in is funny
To me it was something to do when the feeling occurred
Now look at my telling my feelings in words

There ain’t much that can match with this
And I ain’t really looking for replacements
I ain’t really looking forward baby
I been living here with you
I been living here with you
Maybe if it’s meant to be, you and me could last forever
You and me could have it better, couldn’t have said that shit better myself
All this time tryna settle my health
I know that I’m sick, no medical test
I know I’m a kid, but step to me recklessly
You gone be feeling so helpless I never sleep
I been up grinding to reach on my every dream
I been up climbing to reach for my destiny
I been so focused on being the best of me

Maybe I took all the focus from you
I know that it’s true
I been addicted to growing myself,
But never considered me growing with you
Ain’t that some shit, spend ya whole life making connection
Then break em regardless of making the effort
Of staying together, it’s really an art
To all of my people that drifted apart
Know that I never would take it for granted
I know there some people I maybe abandoned
But I was determined to make it my plan
That I’d make it alone, riding alone
Writing alone, stay in a zone, finding it lonely
To be independent a hundred percent of the time that I own
It’s fucked up feeling you the only one that gets you
Like the whole world is against you
And no one could pretend to,
Own it, control it, the onus ain’t them, it’s you
What you made for yourself
What you take when it’s left
What you take in your death
But I be so focused on pleasing the living
That all of these thoughts’ll remain in my head
And maybe it’s best
So many secrets retaining so patiently
Waiting to show all the things I’da said
In the moment I know that I’m tripping I own it
I feel it corroding, this feeling is imminent
Middle between either thinking I’ll blow
Or shit I’ma blow it, in the position to

To sit and evaluate all of my fears
And losing you would be top of the list
But losing myself, is not gonna cut it
I gotta be real with myself,
Brain is working overtime, all this working out for health
I been looking everywhere but I don’t think I found myself
I been so focused, on fuck it like everything
Every lil thought that I think it’s a ferris wheel
Spinning with no control, I’m going overboard
Rather I’m sinking the ship is a metaphor
Rather be drinking, forget what I said it for
Rather not show you, or tell you my head is sore
Rather be, ready to tell you my secrets
And trust that unloading this ain’t a mistake
Show you the world that I made in my brain
Only for me, it’s only for me
But maybe there’s room in this place we can breathe
Maybe there’s proof in the danger I see
That living is living with reason to be