I want more than this world here has to offer
The money, the women the fame,
Something just isn’t the same,
Fuck if I’m feeling the pain
Run or conceal it but hey,
Doing that has me crashing often
(Doing that has me mad at monsters)
But that’s a problem I created myself
An alter-ego makes it easier for hatred to dwell
But sometimes, sometimes, I find myself
Lying helpless and I beg it for help
That little voice inside that says I’ll never give up,
Needs a boost sometimes, so I tell it to hush
And channel something darker
Than pitch black, a quick snap,
Mentality switch back, sinister chit chat
Cause a part of me could never have fixed that
But in a split, snap he kicks back, and tells me to relax
Ain’t no shame in doubt,
Like screaming in a void in the space you cloud
But if you think you’re in control
Better get a grip,
(You can’t control me,
I’m everything you wish exists)
This is MY dream
(Listen it’s just a pipe dream, whose gonna hear your voice in this void when I scream?)
You can’t control me, I’m past the void when it said
(You can’t suppress me, I’m not just a voice in your head…)
(I’m the reason you’re here, the thunderstorm on a sunny day
No need to run away, you don’t believe that I’m near
You needed me for a backbone, as soon as that time past,
Go, and like *Snap* it’s time to go back home
You can’t pick and choose with me you did and you lose with me
Forget and get too picky I’ll finish this fuse, get me
OUT… hear me out, this temper’s bout to fizzle out
You’re boxed in, I wanna help you win a round)
I got this, I made it this far without you
I’m not turning back (I kinda doubt you)
It wasn’t a question, I mean I’m done this time
(You can’t run or hide, kid, you’re gonna regret this)
Fuck it I meant it! There’s not a damn thing
You could get me that wasn’t expected
I’m in charge, and I won’t be stuck in your debt, bitch
(In time you’ll regret saying something so selfish)
Ain’t no shame in doubt,
Like screaming in a void in the space you cloud
But if you think you’re in control
Better get a grip,
(You can’t control me,
I’m everything you wish exists)
This is MY dream
(Listen it’s just a pipe dream, whose gonna hear your voice in this void when I scream?)
You can’t control me, I’m past the void when it said
(You can’t suppress me, I’m more than a voice in your head…)
(Took you 18 years to understand the power I possess
As you battle with this caliber of stress
I was there for the carelessness
Aware you spent your share of it, then went bare again)
That wasn’t my fault, I’m bleeding for more
It wasn’t my job to justify the type of shit I needed you for
I agree, I might’ve took it for granted
And shouldn’t demand it, but honestly I often see a reason to splurge
I’m keeping my word, you’re stranglehold lifts right now
(You got a trip coming up, should I ditch right out?
You need me admit it) you’re kidding, we got it figured out
(But imagine when the guilt’ll mount
You hold responsibility too, so react
Or be mad at me that you need back and relapse)
Gimme the keys back, I’d rather be happy than working
As a soul trapped, tryna scratch at the surface
A reason for no shame in doubt,
Like screaming in a void in the space you cloud
But if you think you’re in control
Better get a grip,
(You can’t control me,
I’m everything you wish exists)
This is MY dream
(Listen it’s just a pipe dream, whose gonna hear your voice in this void when I scream?)
You can’t control me, I’m past the void when it said
(You can’t suppress me, I’m more than a voice in your head…)
North Carolina MC Big Pooh tells it like it is, detail for gritty detail, aided by L'Orange, Steve Roxx, and Apollo Brown. Bandcamp New & Notable Mar 24, 2015